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as in my last post you discovered that i enjoy lists... this next list needs help from all of you... i don't care if you have an account or not.

no one else will see the comments but me, and then i'm going to post the list in a few days so get in your responses...

How do you show someone you love them? OR that you care about them?

For me there are many of these things, and I think about them during my day. How can I show someone what they mean to me?

So I ask that of you. What do you do? It could be for a friend, boyfriend, mother, father, sister, brother.

So send in your responses. Like I said no one else will know that its you but me. Hell, don't even use your account if you want to.

for those of you that know me... might know that i have become a connoisseur of making lists... here is a list that i know Shannon will enjoy....

"I cry alot lately"

"Drew doesn't have friends, Mom." "I have friends"

"If it wasn't this it would be something else"

"I'm hard to remember, but I'm impossible to forget."

"It's been real, and it's been great, and it's been really great..."

"Okay, just dial HELL and I'll answer."

"Is there such a thing as partial cremation?"

"That's the plan - that is the way it's gonna be guys! Sprinkled at sea! And that's the decision from California! Shit, Oregon! We really are from Oregon!"

"No true fiasco ever began as a quest for mere adequacy. A motto of the British Special Air Force is: 'Those who risk, win.' A single green vine shoot is able to grow through cement. The Pacific Northwestern salmon beats itself bloody on it's quest to travel hundreds of miles upstream against the current, with a single purpose, sex of course, but also... life"

"I've spent so much time thinking about all the answers to the problem, that I forget what the problem *actually* was."

"Death and life. And death and life. Right *next door* to each other! There's like, there's a hair between them."

"Did I miss 60B?"

"Welcome to the annual meeting of people who annually meet, and we'll see ya'll next year."

"Ah, so you're a son of a Mitch."

"It'll all work out..."

"From this day on... I own my father gun..."

"This time around you can be anyone"

"I can turn the gray skies blue... but I can't get next to you... no I can't get next to you..."

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? i don't have closet doors
2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? Nope
3. Have you ever 'done it' in a hotel room? Sadly... no
4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No
5. Do you like to use post-it notes? I love post its =)
6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? no i don't use them
7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? bear... it wouldn't hurt that much, right?
9. Do you always smile for pictures? No
10. What is your biggest pet peeve? people who don't pay attention to the road when they are driving, when they don't use thier signal, when the drive really slow... bad drivers in general.
11. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? i don't use a sheet, just a light blanket right now
12. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? totally
13. Have you ever peed in the woods? yes
14. Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing? uh... duh
15. Do you chew your pens and pencils? i suck, i don't chew =)
16. How many people have you slept with this week? right now i'm only sleeping with fred... :(
17. Do you like popcorn from those big tins? some times, it depends what kind of popcorn it is
18. What is your "Song of the week"? Dave Matthews "Where are you going?"
19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? really depends on who it is... but most guys can
20. Do you still watch cartoons? some times... family guy
21. Whats your favorite scary movie? freddy vs. jason =)
22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? under the constitution?
23. What do you drink with dinner? milk or water
24. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? sweet and sour
25. What is your favorite food/ cuisine? right now i'm loving the BLT's
26. What movies could you watch over and over and still love? Love Actually, Robin Williams Live, Closer... most of the movies I own.
27. Last person you kissed/kissed you? I don't remember... maybe my dad
28. Were you ever a boy/girl scout? yes, girl scout
29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? i think it would depend on when and why... but probably not.
30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? last week to andrew =)
31. Can you change the oil on a car? yeah right... all i can do is drive. i just learned how to pump gas.
32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket? not yet
33. Ran out of gas? nope
34. Favorite kind of sandwich?: BLT... or maybe the comet morehouse
35. Best thing to eat for breakfast? bacon, hashbrowns, cottage cheese, oj... i miss blackhawk :(
36. What is your usual bedtime? 10:30-11:00pm
37. Are you lazy? not usually... but i was this weekend after the concert
38. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for halloween? a ghost... and a witch... i wasn't really creative... oh i was a bunny once... i was young and lindsay and i matched... we were really cute!
40. How many languages can you speak? English and really bad spanish
41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? No, unless you count Oriental Trading
42..Which are better legos or lincoln logs? lincoln logs and legos... i just like building
43. Are you stubborn? i've become more over the years.
44. Who is better...Leno or Letterman? neither... i haven't watched either in many years
45. Ever watch soap operas? yeah... sadly... i used to be a passions lover... what? i didn't have a job that summer.
46. Afraid of heights? not really, depends what's at the bottom, but i guess then really i'm afraid what's at the bottom
47. Sing in the car? ALWAYS!!!
48. Dance in the shower? usually when i'm at school cause then i have some music.
49. Dance in the car? if i'm singing i'm usually dancing... ps... love dancing with shannon in the car!!!
50. Ever used a gun? nope... had dreams that i have though
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? senior year... or maybe the ones that dan took of me, which was may
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? it depends on what it is...
53. Is christmas stressful? not usually
54. Ever eat a pierogie? Nope
55. Favorite type of fruit pie? strawberry, or some times apple
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? teacher
57. Do you believe in ghosts? No
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? all the time... cause my dreams start coming into reality... that's just weird
59. Take vitamins daily? nope... probably should
60. Wear slippers? only when its cold out
61. Wear a bath robe? nope, its what a towel is for
62. What do you wear to bed? shorts and a tank
63. First concert? jason marz and michelle branch 2003... sad huh?
64. Wal-Mart, Target or K-Mart? Target... its the greatest place in the world
65. Nike or Adidas? nike i guess
66.Cheetos Or Fritos? Cheetos... i love the cheese
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Sunflower seeds.
68. Ever hear of, "gorp"? yup... making some tomorrow
69. Ever take dance lessons? i was taking dance classes up until my 8th grade year
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? nope, as long as they are happy
71. Can you curl your tongue? Yes
72. Ever won a spelling bee? nope, i've never been in one
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Yes... last time was at NACURH 2006 =)
74. Own any record albums? Nope
75. Own a record player? Nope
76. Regularly burn incense? no...
77. Ever been in love? Yes...
78. Who would you like to see in concert? john mayer
79. What was your last concert you saw? dave matthews... he was amazing... AMAZING!!!
80.Hot tea or cold tea? Both, depends on the time of season
81.Tea or coffee? Both depending on mood
82.Favorite kind of cookie? chocolate... anything chocolate
83.Can you swim well? some what
84.Can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose? no... people tried to teach me and it never worked.
85. Are you patient? typically
86. DJ or band, at a wedding? i've planned most of my wedding, but that hasn't been thought of yet... okay... i've just designed my dress... that's all.
87.Ever won a contest? No
88. Ever have plastic surgery? No
89. Which are better black or green olives? depends on the mood i'm in, but usually black
90.Can you knit or crochet? i used to know how to knit, but then i forgot
91. Best room for a fireplace? Living room
92. Do you want to get married? Yes
93. If married, how long have you been married? n/a
94. Who was your HS crush? andrew... not west... different guy.
95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? nope.
96. Do you have kids? no
97. Do you want kids? yes, two... maybe three
98. Whats your favorite color? volcanic peach... and green is making a close tie
99. Do you miss anyone right now? shannon, melissa, shana mae, shane, most of the oshkosh peeps
100. Who do you wanna see right now? see above.

today day is a day which i've been waiting for since september... today i find out if all the work that i have put in, as well as those of the committee chairs is going to continue. i couldn't sleep all night, and then i woke up early and kept thinking... what if our video didn't play... what if it does.... i know i'm going to cry... either way...

so i will post later if we will be hosting NACURH 2007.

thank you to everyone who has been there for me during this process... i love you all!!!

7 More days til I leave for CALI!!!! I'm so excited right now and a little scared... but that is to happen. All I know is the time that we are to get out of there, and thats up about it for now. But, thats okay for right now. There are going to be many practices and what not and its all getting there thats going to be fun!

So thats about it... 7 more days!!!

I'M SO EXCITED!!!

So I haven't updated in awhile, and I guess that's not all bad. Life here has been interesting this past week. Needless to say, school is over and I am trying to enjoy the next week that I'm here in Wisconsin before I head out to California for NACURH.

This past week has been one where I've never hit so many emontions at one time. Shane and I are no longer and I think that I'm finally getting to the point where I'm alright with it. I didn't sleep much this week, or eat much mostly because I was just drained from the emontions. I hope that Shane and I are able to fix out what is wrong and if nothing comes of it but that we are friends, I think that I will be alright with it. I know that it will hurt when I see him with another girl, and I'm sure that there will be some sort of pain for him, or maybe not... I'm not too sure how he's dealing with this at the moment.

But tonight I realized that this is not the end and that I will be alright. I watched "Love Actually" tonight and that was the first movie that Shane and I like saw as a date... unless you count Signs... but whatever. But what was odd was I was alright with everything that was going on, and that I wasn't really missing him. This is a good sign. (So please no more pity)

Part of me thinks that I might have messed up other things with other people... but I'm sure that they are understanding in the reasons in which I called, etc.

Otherwise, I've very excited about NACURH and bidding for a National Conference, which could come to Oshkosh!!! I'm so excited to get up there and show them that we want this and we are working to bring it to Oshkosh. Part of me gets all teary because we could possibly have a national conference in a year at Oshkosh!!!! But I think the thing that I am most excited about is that I'll be flying and going to Cali!!! I haven't flown since my Senior year of High School to see my ex, and I've never been to Cali... so I'm getting more excited every day we get closer. Only 9 more days!!!

ONLY 9 MORE DAYS!!!

i want to go home... if only for a few hours and see my family... my whole family... i want to see Ana... and play monkey... i want to see Ian roll over and begin to crawl... he's getting so big and i can't see it... i want to see Evan before he gets too far into searching for colleges... i want to talk to Matthew and see how he's doing... he always struggles, but i know that there is good in him... i've always seen it... Julianne needs someone... there's no one around her, and i wish that i could be there with her... she needs to see strong women around her... not that my aunt isn't doing a good job... but she has so much going for her... i want to see my aunts and just talk to them... i want to see my grandparents before its too late...

i just want a few hours... but that doesn't seem to be in my future until thanksgiving... i don't know if i can wait that long...

there's too much that i have to do on my weekends... and it looks like my only day is Nov. 6th... which is the day that my family is getting together to do care packages for my cousin and 20 other soldiers...

i miss my family... i just need a break from the school world...

no more office... no more desk... no books... or conferences.... or camps... or oshkosh... just for a few hours... that's all i want...

thanks for listening... thats all....

okay... so there was one more thing that i was going to write about... i turn 20 on the 20th... yay for my golden birthday!!! so here's the crazy thing... when i was in like 3rd/4th grade i had a total plan for my birthday... and here it is...

i was going to have a huge chocolate cake with this hard chocolate glaze flosting... that said Happy 20th Birthday, in gold writing. Then my boyfriend and I would get married...

so yeah... this is totally not going to happen... cause I'm sure shane is not ready for that... and i know i'm not... and that's a lot of cake for one girl... yeah... i can't wait!!! i'm no longer going to be a teenager!!!

so yeah... my life has been busy... really busy... the last three weeks have been really crazy with having most of my mornings starting at 7am and going until at least 11pm. i spent a lot of that time either in the office or working on lofts. for a good time my body was so sore and i looked as though my boyfriend had been beating me. not that he has, shane would never do that to me... cause if he did, there would be a price to pay. anyways... yeah... so life has been stressful. not to mention that when i moved in there was no elevator use in north scott. grrr.... it sucked, but my butt started to look good... now i'm being lazy again and taking the elevator. yeah... what can i say.

things with shane are going good for the most part. its really weird and hard living on his floor. like i enjoy the fact that he is close to me, thats nice for the nights when i just need a hug... god he's good at hugging/holding me when times get bad. but the first two weeks, no one else was here. and now... there are residents and i've shut myself off a lot because i don't want them to think that i'm being treated differently because we are dating... i mean its almost been a year and a half, its not like he won't write me up if i'm breaking a policy... granted i probably won't be breaking anything anyways, seeing that i've got a lot on my plate, but that's what happens with the position. so yeah... not too sure how much longer this can last with me being up here.... yeah

what else is there really to report... i've got to work at midnight and work until 3am... not too excited about it, but in the same matter, someone will be hired soon so they can take those hours.

the usrh meeting sucked today. i mean i sucked today. and yes i will beat myself up for this. there are many things that i need to read before i go into my next meeting. well at least i know i've got the time to read and work on it. i was so shakey today, and i'm not too sure why... mostly because it was my first meeting and really i know i can get better. yeah... there's more that i could say, but really... i don't need to beat myself that much...

trying to find a new VP is going to be really hard. there are a few people that are thinking about running and if its any of them then i won't have a full exec board until the end of the semester. oh... so many things... so many things....

i'm not too sure what else to say. there are so many things going on in my mind... just always going and going and going... god i wish that there would be times when i could just shut it all off... but that won't be happening any time soon. so yeah... i'll write more later when my nap doesn't work out.... until then.. have a good night... sweet dreams... and i love you!